Well, i think i finally got my other xanga to work, so it's Shoowup 

Love you all,

                        ~Shoowup~

One of the saddest days of my life. I have JUST NOW realized that the majority of my close friends are seniors, and today they left me for good. It was all I could muster to keep from crying during the video and speeches, I was truly moved. Think what u want, but I would've cried if I knew no one would've said anything, but I know better. TAKE IT LIKE A MAN!!!

WOW sad times, good times, happy times, bad times, mixed emotions. This time of year brings the best out in everyone. It causes people to speak what they truly feel and want to say before it's too late. I hope i've done so myself. I don't want to leave anything unsaid. If any of you seniors haven't shook my hand, got a hug, heard a congrats, got an "i love you", heard a "good luck" or anything, then i'm giving it to u now. None of you guys or gals have any idea how much I love you. YOU ARE ALL I HAVE. I love you guys,

                                  ~Shoowup~

Life is good, glad for some things, extremely pissed at others, certain ones in particular.

Got yearbooks today, didn't have much time to get all the precious seniors farewells in my hot little book. I HAVE to tomorrow. I love them too much.

Here is my promise to everyone, and I know Johnny will make the same one, I will never not even once plead or whine, or complain about the year being too long, or say how much I can't wait to leave highschool this year or next. I love it too much for real.

I need some love, only feeling it from a few, and I need it more then ever. THOUGHT I had some, but was mistaken. Later everyone,

                              ~Shoowup~

Such a good week. Friday I spent the whole day with friends, first at the soccer game with CP, John, Los, KY, and B Sole. Then with those same and a few more at the drive-in. Had a great time with some extraordinary people at about the gayest movie ever, but it didn't matter because there could've not been a movie and we'd have had just as much fun. Jessica's entry made me think about this too, about how many people I've become friends with because of soccer, lol. Jessica Johnson, Katie Elkins, Bree Kisner, Angie Dyer, Lori Maybrier, Laurren Oaks, Hake the SNAKE, Sarah Stoll, Evelyn Sanders, CROWELL, Jessica Lyons, and I' sure I'm forgetting a lot. But it's just amazing how one little thing could expose you to soo many great people. When me and John first started, I asked him, if he'd have done this without me, and we both said we wouldn't, NO WAY, but I could honestly say I would now. Anyways, it's mother's day, I need to go spend time with the greatest. I LOVE YOU MOM!!! Later,

                          ~Shoowup~

EDIT- Letdown, heartbroke, depressed, but most of all, disappointed.